Yes, I know what I wrote there.
But I got on the scale yesterday and the truth was there: 147.8. Eight pounds heavier than when we went to Vegas in July (my lowest post-pregnancy weight).
And while I've been trying to be kind to myself, I reluctantly admit that the brownies, cupcakes, cake, cookies, sammiches, chips, etc. have not made a dent in making me feel better. If anything, they've contributed to me feeling worse, given that now I not only can't fit into my pants, I feel physically ill from the sugar and dairy.
Off sugar, dairy and anything I tend to binge eat (peanut butter, I'm lookin at you).
Day 1 was OK; I reminded myself 10,000 times that the first few days are the hardest and before I know it, I will be able to pass sugar up with no problem. I even walked with my coworker to get a cupcake from this amazing place. Then heard him shout in ectasy from it. That wasn't that hard, actually.
What was hard -- the real white knuckling? Came post-work, when I rushed home only to rush in and have to do the dinner bedtime routine. Please tell me all you can -- I am serious here -- about how to do this without wanting to binge eat/drink/scream/cry/run away. Meal planning? Does that work? I'm trying to delegate the carb part of the meal to Pete, but I have to be honest, the man is painfully slow about things. It's a good thing in so many instances. Notsomuch in this one. We're working on creating recipes that require minimal work on my part, i.e. turn on grill, put meat on grill. But then there's the whole bedtime routine and the kid is freaking miserable these days (I checked last night for molars -- no dice) so last night was an hour long battle to get her to sleep. I didn't get to the gym until 8:20, and my workout partner whined the whole time. I literally kicked her ass at one point and told her to stop being a brat. Do the goddamn exercises. I got home at 9:15, showered, watched a little TV, and got in bed by 10:30. Tremendous accomplishment in my book.
Does it get easier? Tips for simplifying? Enlighten me -- I mean it, I really need all the help I can get.